I've never been so good waking up early on a weekend morning, as all the other days I wash my brain at the campus sitting in the classroom and attending labs that are not worth. To me Engineering has become just another part of the day which I have to go through no matter what comes. I drag myself every morning to sit on the table spreading butter on mah toast while swallowing orange juice in small sips and think How the hell I'm gonna help this planet being an Engineer? And here comes Mommy's face in front of ma eyes and my eyes go wide open; "this is how it is and this is how it has to be" i think and walk to the bus stop.
Walking hardly takes 10 mins and there I reach to the stop waiting for the bus to come and this thought pops up again... "Why do I have to do this to myself? Its okay I scored less in my boards but it hardly matters. Who the hell is bothered what I do until i give sumthing good to the society? Why shouldn't I be What I want to?.........Constructing building and designing homes n offices isnt a bad job! And I have it inside me like imagining a empty land into a large construct of bricks and cement and glass...." And everyday the same thing continues. Nobody gets affected except me, Obviously who the hell wants to solve my problem? Nobody. Thinking this the whole day goes and I fall on bed totally exhausted!
I forgot to set an alarm the other day and woke up at 8:00..!! Just had half n hour to get ready for the bus.
First, I made sure I had the fastest shower possible. That's difficult. I love long, hot showers,Who the hell doesn't?? It's probably the most peaceful part of the day. Dressing up in my favourite white t-shirt and a dark blue jeans I rushed to the kitchen, picking up two pieces of toasts and holding them in mouth rushed towards the door, running and reaching the stop almost on time to miss the bus.Whoo i enter and think still chewing the hardend piece of the bread wrapped in the tissue,"how fast my life has become? Should I take a break and stand and look around where I am, what I am doing? Huff! Life has to be fast paced in this fast growing world, I never knew that somebody would come in shower me with emotions that it would change my perspective of looking at life!!
My bus has the worst crowd ever I thought when my thoughts got interrupted by a group of students merry making (shouting and singing at the top of their voice. They dont hav ettiquetes) sitiing at the back seats of the gaint moving vehicle. What do they think of themselves? Dont they understand there are many people travelling along with them and they too have their personal things to talk and think. I hate the atmosphere in there. With an angry face I looked around myself and saw a boy and a girl sitting opposite to me. The boy was coaxing the girl to let him drop a peck on her cheek. My anger vanished n i started laughing inside as I cudn't laugh in front of them and looked out of the window. And suddenly I felt a jolt in my back; the driver had pressed the break hard as the bus was in full speed.Everybody got shocked;I raised myself from the seat and looked ahead in curiosity what the hell went wrong for him doing so. A cow had come in front of the bus from nowhere; it could have taken so many lives sitting in.The bus resumed its drive as everybody setteled down and I going back to my seat looked around to observe how this small incident had changed the moods of the people. The boy opposite who wanted a peck was angry on the driver as due to the break the gurl hit her forehead on the back of the seat in front of her, the students at the back who were howling at top of their voices had settled and didnt speak anything;the only noise I could hear was of the bus making its way to the college and the the sound of the horn everytime the driver pressed it.And the jouney to the Engineering heaven (hell) came to an end, for i reached there and did nothing intresting at all.
My campus is almost 20 kms. from my home and it takes about a 60 min. bus ride to take me there. All the way I make sure not to read as my eyes get strained; all I have left to do is either open my laptop and work or listen to a music number on my ipod!
And in case if someone is sitting next to me then chatter with them on not so intrested topics and make myself bored. Reaching campus all I have to do is go to the class, sit there and keep staring at the faculty who is either taking a roll call or telling us their ratofied story notes they have been preparing since last night.
The canteen is again the worst place as whatever food items are printed on the menu are never available and whatever is available is not at all i repeat not at all safe to eat. you should die of hunger but not eat there. And then the labs are fun to be because you have no practicals to do actually just move around the lab and chatter with the guy you have a crush on(thats what all the gurls in my batch do!) and then go out back to the class. "Where the hell is life here?" I think. "Who the hell says Engineering is fun or being an Engineer is a proud thing to be? I don't think so as for me I would have been happy doing Interiors or constructing buildings! That would have made me do things from the core; not this way you open the books two days before exams and you go and jott down all you crammed!"
"Well this is life Darling!" Mom says when I tell her all this stuff. "If you think that you get all the things that make you happy on this earth then, there would never have been jealousy and devils..!! The Earth would have proved to be another Heaven and don't think that whatever you are doing is of no use! Today you are doing it because tomorrow it will be the only thing that will be of use to you..! So don't worry and give it your best and I must say if you are doing so good without putting in your heart; You'll rock when you put your heart.. Think about it.." And with a faint smile she leaves me thinking!!
To be continued...
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